This entry courtesy iTunes surfing.
It’s old school night in the house. I am apparently now old enough for the music I devoured during my formative years to be deemed “old school”.
Vinyl. When a 12 inch remix was merely an extra minute or two added on. Shalamar’s 12-inch of “A Night to Remember” clocks in at 5:02 of delightful joy. Jody Watley, Howard Hewett and that other guy whose name we never knew. It’s one of the many tunes that takes me back to Soul Night at the local roller rink. Yeah, I did the skate roll bounce with a vengeance. I used to go on Saturday afternoons with kids from children’s choir practice. That’s when they’d turn on the lights and do the Hokey Pokey and the Limbo. I don’t know how I discovered the heat of Wednesday nights…wait a minute. Yes, I do. I graduated to the youth choir and…well, you can imagine the rest. Some of my most interesting outfits were born during that time. In retrospect, I was way more ambitious with my fashion and hairstyle choices then I realized. I’m not saying it was good (remember the asymmetrical ‘dos made popular by Salt-n-Pepa?), I’m just saying I was ambitious.
Oh. Oh. Terence Trent D’Arby’s first album. “Let’s Go Forward”, first. 1987. I was dating the boy who would eventually propose, then crash and burn. I was alllll about it. D’Arby’s voice had this stunning combination of throbbing, vibrating need. As a fervent hormonal teen, that’s all I heard. That’s all I felt. “Sign Your Name”. So sweet, so nearly silent. Shh. Just listen. It’s what I felt.
1986 saw the Loose Ends album Zagora. The only song that causes twinges is “I Can’t Wait”. by the time I turned on to this one, it’d been out for a few years. So the longing of a long-distance relationship (different universities) blossomed around this song. A quiet storm mix tape staple.
My tape and vinyl collection at the time reminds me of how much I stood apart after deciding to attend a small private nearly all pale people school in the middle of freaking nowhere coal mining Virginia. I had a better-than marginal console system with big floor speakers that my dad had gotten for me half off from Sears where he worked part-time (employee discount, too!) that traveled with me. When I was alone, I’d crank it. I think it was Guy and Heavy D and The Boyz that got me into trouble the first time. “Groove Me”. “My Fantasy”. “Teddy’s Jam” (1 & 2). “D-O-G Me Out”. “You Ain’t Heard Nuttin’ Yet”. “More Bounce”. Those coal mining kids had NO idea what to make of me, whatsoever. Read an article today in the NYT about how interracial roommates can reduce the prejudice in one another. While I identify very strongly with the ideas the article puts forth, I must say that I wasn’t very helpful in those early semesters/years. I had no idea how bereft I’d feel. It wasn’t that the other students were white, no. It was the fact that a very large percentage of them had never even laid eyes on a real live black person in their entire lives. To them, I was either a Cosby kid or a welfare mother because they didn’t see anything else on TV.
In order to promote class unity or some snot like that, each class year was required to take the same class together at the same time. Four days a week we’d be in little groups taught by all of the faculty no matter what their specialty, one day we’d meet up as a class for special lectures. Freshman year was basically western civ and by the time we worked our way up to the civil rights movement in the second semester, I was feeling pretty comfortable with things for the most part. Until the professor, who also happened to be head of the music department began pointing himself at me. I guess he felt more comfortable doing so since he knew me well-he assumed-out of class (tiny, tiny, tiny music department. I was one of maybe a handful of voice students). But the “Terioso, what do you think about /insert black folk related topic du jour here/?” all of a sudden, I was the Voice of All Black People. I was teen controlled by my baser urges, that was pretty much it. So one morning after getting too little rest, I finally, sleepily snapped. He or someone else in the class made the mistake of phrasing the question in the worst way. “How do black/your people fell about…?” “I don’t know”, I answered. “I can only tell you how I feel about it and right now, I don’t feel like it.” At that point, I didn’t care about lifting it up for my race and eradicating stereotypes. I just wanted to stop feeling like a butterfly pinned to a cork board.
I transferred after a group of drunkards thought it would be a good idea to “string that nigger bitch up” towards the end of my third semester there. That’s a story of which I do not particulary feel like illustrating the details tonight.